Selvaraaju’s Pensive

When the teacher asked what my ambition was during my school days. My reply was ….to become an astronaut. Now, when I look back, I wonder about myself. I stick to that dream till my 12th grade and later on I keep redefining my goal and finally settled with one final ambition. Now I’m realizing that it is easy to set a goal but never achieve it.
Now I’m fighting to achieve what I wish to be. Now I realize the pain and hardwork are the main ingredients for the success formula to work.

Whenever people advised about achieving dream, I turned my deaf ear and ignored their golden experience which is shared. I realize that they are people like me who try to achieve and they are people who refine their dream time to time as they feel difficulty in achieving their goals.

“If you gotta a dream, you gotta proctect it.. No matter what…. Even don’t listen to Father who could say it’s impossible to achieve your dream”. Sticking is dream don’t seem to be easy if you have fear to achieve it. You may be discouraged and you may be intimidated to change your dream. You may have a financial barrier and emotional border to achieve but never give up your dream for such a petty things.

Your dream is half achieved if you stick to dream till you hit your target. Plan and have small objectives in achieving your goal. Find right people, use appropriate methods in finishing your task. Time and resource management are the two greatest threats in achieving your dream. Some say “Set achievable ambition”. Achievable or unachievable varies from person to person. Like “buying a car” ambition seem to be unachievable to poor man but it is a piece of cake for a rich person. When I set my long term dream, it looked unachievable during start. When I was half way through, it looked like it is just a few inches away.

Your determination factor is key to success and you need emotional support from your friends and relatives if you ain’t self motivational type.

This blog is dedicated to Lakshmi, HR Mettler Toledo, Coimbatore whom I haven’t met so far.

I am known to be good at academics right from the day I started learning alphabets

I remember where I stood when the HR of Cognizant technology solutions announced the short listed candidated for interview after the appitude tests.

I was at 68th position.

My name was announced 3rd afer the interview for job offer. I was really proud of myself as I performance reached its zenith during technical interview.

I answered the question with highest level of knowledge and with utmost confidence. I was proud as I sold my resume for good job offer.

During my post graduate studies in Australia, I learnt a lot of life. Many things are managed by myself and many critical decisions were taken by myself.

I have learnt the hardest lesson “Living the life”. It may look more philosophical but it is part of my life now.

When I touched the soil of India, I already know the hardest things are going to chased by me.

One such thing is “Earning for your life”. People will treat you as you are a worthless bubble if you dont have an income of your own.

It is just not about income but more about dependency ( dependency on your parents )

Hindu opportunities opened a door for my dream job and that is in MT. I forward my resume to HR and called MT to know about the status of my resume.

She is the first HR person to answer my calls politely and asked me to send an updated version of resume detailing job experience.

My aspiration was put to test. Today She told me that my resume dont fit their job profile

I have added this company in my watchlist and try to follow with their activities which would make me a good candidate in future.

I tell to myself ” My resume cannot speak much about my programming ability unless I have given a chance to work with”.

I know that my dreams are stronger and a setback to such a dream will many me weaker but I will rise again like a Phoenix.

“If you gotta a dream , you gotta protect it” Chris Gardtner from the film “The pursuit of Happyness”

Out of Blue, oneday an aussie woman called me up and introduce her as my new property agent.

She is extrovert as her job mandates such a quality. Later I understood she is such a very rare person to be born with that skill to easily

mingle with people. She told me that they are gonna auctioning my property in Feb so there would be inspection every week.

Everything she did during her proporty inspection are professional and I learnt couple of her skills.  She sometimes worried about how she is

gonna sell the property ervnthough she is confident enough !!

She is a kind of  person whom I aspire to be. Today she is over the moon. She achieved a milestone in her career. She proved her

capability..most impotantly her confidence !!

I could feel her success and happiness in her sparking eyes. Though I am in pain, her victory consoled me. It gave me a boost.

I took couple of hours to clean the property to make it  tidy during the auction day, it pays her success !! She thanked everybody and ….

She is damn good..She greeted adios to me.

I reckon that she would party hard during weekend over this success. Let her Shine !!

This is first time in my life where I felt extremely happy over others success. It sounds weird to me.  I met her only an hour every week. But I

feel happy for her milestone.  I never felt anything like that before…I never wanna introspect into such things…

Anyway Congrats Monica…

Yea.. I remember the words of Chris Gardner of the movie ‘The pursuit of happyness”.

….”You got a dream… You gotta protect it. People can’t do somethin’ themselves, they wanna tell you you can’t do it. If you want somethin’, go get it.”

…”“Maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue. And maybe we can actually never have it no matter what.”

when Will Smith walks out of after getting application to join stock brokers, he says after looking at hundreds of wall street people who walk out happily…”When I gonna be like them?”
Even I ask myself the same question everytime I walk out in the Melbourne streets where hundreds of passers by walk out with happiness flooded in their face. I could always feel theirs…I wanna feel mine..

PhD…yea…my ambition to fulfill my life !! Right out, Hope is the only thing that is making my life easier. I never wanna push me to question my existence.

I will fight against all the odds thats gonna come up and I will try to achive.  I pray GOD to be on my side. If HE chooses to give me a hurdle, let him end my chapter in HIS books.

I wanna be like Achilles.

I am still fighting…still fighting…I will fight till I achive what I want to be…

I feel better about my future now. For the past couple of weeks, I didn’t think about it.

I discussed about my future plans with my guide and he got lot of faith in my abilities. I know that I cannot disappoint myself with my ambition. For many, coming to Australia is all about living forever in this continent. For me, it is more about pursuing my ambition of being a research scholar.

Everybody seems to understand my urge to pursue my dreams except fate. I never included any uncertainty parameter whilst analysing my future decisions. My first setback has showed me that I need to tune my plans if something happens unexpectedly. I studied about this during my engineering program. It is called as worst case analysis. But I never experienced anything of that kind in my real life.

Yae, today life taught me a lesson that I should reckon. Something is always out of your control and we should accept it by grit of your teeth or by enjoying with a glass of red wine.

This blog may look little inscrutable but people who know me should be able to comprehend.

If a person does not get what he/she deserves to get, then the whole world turns upside down. The world would make his hell of his living. It is just a matter of his attitude and the support from his friends and family that will inject a new stream of blood into vein and able to visualise that he has still got a HOPE.